Introducing Silent Resolve And the God Who Let Me Down. Written by Susan Van Volkenburgh about her experiences with the tragedy surrounding 9/11 and how she recovered from the loss of her father on that day. How do you look into the eyes of a God who let you down? The events of September 11th mark a change in my life. He was our anchor, holding fast our family, the mainstay of our domesticity, firmly fixing and stabilizing our bearings. You just sit and try to understand.