We are ready to give Ivan one year of his non presence. We sold the all goods in Sweden. I both two apartments and wait for moving with my son to one of them. It is terrible experience of death. I survived to some level. I probably wounded some. But was my softest way to reorganize my freedom through truth. Freedom is truth taken softly. Not to harm sarroundness but to come out with your inner space - truth. Truth with no politeness is harmfull and could be taken as garbage  (smece). God Thank